Early last month, on the Day of Epiphany, I sat in contemplation. I breathed deeply and thought What do I want my life to manifest more of? What do I want to have seen more throughout the coming year? Well it’s taken the past month to arrive at and then rest in the answer(s).
Joy, freedom, surrender, rest, adventure.
And in order to gain more of the above, it all begins with one word.
After the last few years of participating in OneWord365 when I chose a word to focus on throughout the year, my word finally found me this time around.
-to sustain with food or nutriment; supply with what is necessary for life, health, and growth. To cherish, foster, keep alive. To strengthen and build up.
Nourish. That’s it! My body needs more nourishment. My creativity needs to be kept alive and growing this year. My marriage needs to be continually strengthened. I crave more. I WANT more. And no one is going to do it for me. I have to sustain all the good things in me and around me myself.
And you know what? That’s hard. Harder than I imagined. I’ve become so comfortable in helping strengthen those around me. I’ve spent endless hours on the phone, in homes, in coffee shops, writing emails to those I love that needed and cried out for encouragement and nourishment to their hearts and lives. And I gladly did that. But as I continued to give, I saw that I wasn’t asking. I wasn’t taking anything in return many times. And then I’ve wondered why my health failed, why my sleep became so screwed up. Why I don’t take time to stop and feed myself in various ways because there’s just not enough time left.
This year there WILL be time. I’m saying no to others and saying yes to myself more often. Sometimes that will mean missing out on social events. In a few cases it’s going to mean a shift in my friendship with someone. And I see no selfishness in that. I can only give to the extent that I’m filled up and unfortunately I ended last year completely and utterly drained.
This year I will be writing, creating, cooking, photographing, exploring, risking, letting go, speaking truth, ignoring bullshit and resting MORE. All in an effort to gain nourishment for my body, mind and spirit.
Each week I’ll try to write at least two posts on nourishment including thoughts on nourishing body, mind and spirit; my relationships, marriage and faith. Mostly I want this to be a space where I keep myself accountable. But as with any journey, I’m not here alone. I invite you to think about how you can nourish yourself more in the coming days.
Join me! How can you feel nourished today?